I’m considering buying an EA game at release

Here is a strange turn of events. I hate Electronic Arts. Despite growing up with the company being a permanent influence on my childhood I absolutely despise them on account of the crap they’ve been pulling for the past decade or so. I hold them single-handedly responsible for the ruination of one of my favorite sci-fi franchises (Mass Effect), I consider them one of the most prominent builders of the video game industry’s most resilient creative dead-end (But keep working Activision-Blizz, you are catching up!), and the sheer amount of unrestrained greed they exhibit at every release boggles my mind. And yet, for the first time I’m actually considering buying one of their upcoming games on release.

Trailers for Battlefield V have been under bombardment since they appeared on the web, just as the reveal of the game’s box art, that features (dramatic pause) A WOMAN!!! Now anyone who attacks the game for this has already either stopped reading, orĀ  has already written their response as to how wrong I am, even though I have literally not even started arguing yet. I know I am inviting trouble by even addressing any of this, but you know what? I started this site in part to share my thoughts on popular subjects. So here it goes.

Above this paragraph you can see the controversial trailer I mentioned earlier. As with all Youtube videos, however, the real entertainment is in the comments (provided you are not too squeamish about human stupidity, and what I really can’t call anything other than insecure sexism). To WWII enthusiasts I’m sure the problem is blatantly apparent: Women during the second World War were not front line fighters, despite what this trailer seems to be depicting. The response to this (as well as to the prosthetic arm) were, to say the least, a disaster. The irony is that besides those points, the trailer is as bog standard as they get. Now I’m sure that there will be tuning, and mechanical improvements, and quality of life improvements from previous games, but for someone like me, who is bored to death of the myriad of military FPS games, nothing at all new or interesting was shown. Just the bloody women.

Now before anyone starts tossing around the SJW accusations, I honesty think that this is good, but my reasons have nothing to do with social justice. Beyond the fact, that I truly believe diversity is a good thing, my reasons for liking this are purely selfish ones. You see, I like women. I pretty much always feel more comfortable in their presence than men, and I find them more intellectually stimulating to interact with as well (Though I’m sure this has much to do with the specific company I find myself in. Yay, Hungary… ). However, video games are foreign to many of the women in my circles. They either don’t care about them, or just don’t know enough about them to form any opinions. Since video games are possibly my most prominent hobby, that means that favorite conversation topic is useless. I want more women to like games. I want them to enjoy the hobby as much as I do. Thus I want them to feel welcome in the world of video games. It honesty blows my mind that there are so many men (or lets be honest, boys) who cling to the opposite.

Inclusiveness is probably the one thing EA consistently does that is good. The first FIFA game to include women’s teams was the first sports game I wanted to play since FIFA 2004. I remember thinking that this might be one of the ways to help elevate women’s football by making it popular among young girls, just as the men’s game is among young boys. Having Battlefront 2’s main character be a female imperial was also a breath of fresh air (that admittedly turned sour after she almost immediately joined the rebels…). Of all the shitty practices that EA indulges in I see no reason to chastise the company for one of the few good things it regularly does.


The “historical accuracy” argument I actually find hilarious though. I am not well versed in the topic, so I don’t know if women occasionally fighting on the front lines was a thing or not (outside the French resistance). But at the same time I can’t help but roll my eyes at the sheer stupidity of bringing up the problem of realism in a Battlefield game. Were all these outraged people attacking EA with torches and pitchforks over the previous game, where half the soldiers on a World War I battlefield ran around with automatic weapons, or every other ludicrous piece of technology that at most only existed as prototypes at the time? We are talking about a franchise, nay, a genre where soldiers run around battlefields discarding half-loaded clips, or clips they fired a few shots out of. Where combatants can move at full speed after taking on multiple bullet shots, and even the slightly annoying red blur that covers their vision disappears after a few bandages are applied. Where death lasts no more than 30 seconds at most. When games are designed, the point is to take aspects of real life and adjust them to fit the comfort level of the players. To make deadly scenarios slightly less deadly. To make frustrating elements less frustrating, or even fun and exhilarating. They already bent the rules of physics and biology to make these games more enjoyable, I see this as no different. If anyone ever made a historically accurate FPS, it would be the most boring, non-enjoyable experience ever. War is not fun.

It’s also worth mentioning that the usual predatory business practices EA use in their big-budget titles are not going to be present here. Or at least that is what they have been saying as of my writing this (trust for EA is in short supply). In essence this is no different from when Marvel Comics made the character of Thor into a woman, or made Captain America black, or Spider-man Hispanic. Huge controversy, but in the end the comics never really changed anything. The same will happen here. People will realize, once they get over the anachronistic fighting females, that this is still just a Battlefield game. Another WWII FPS, that have been made a billion times in the past. And for that reason it will sell like all the rest, and both EA and the butthurt audience will move on like they always have. And maybe, just maybe, a change like this might bring on some new fans to the franchise, who now feel that much more comfortable with the character they get to play as (like myself, for instance). And honestly, those who decide to get out on the count of women and social justice “invading” their games, I feel justified in saying that gaming is better off without them.


The graduating Justice League

I haven’t posted in a while due to many things having arisen towards the end of the school year. On that subject, I am finishing my 3 year training in Education, during which I got to know a bunch of really awesome people. It has become customary for me to give the gift of art on occasion (birthdays and the like), but for graduation I decided to go the extra mile.


This is an image of those of us who made it through all 3 years together as the members of the best team of superheroes ever to have existed: the Justice League (and the best incarnation of said group: the Justice League Animated Series). (I chose to make myself Aquaman btw.)

I originally wanted to then link all my friends the music from the show’s opening to provide the proper mood and atmosphere. Instead I decided to get to work on what is to this point the single greatest THING I have ever made.

Here’s to all the amazing people I had the privilege of attending university with. You guys are simply … super!

About my self portraits

Hi folks!

I feel like rambling today. If you are not a fan of those types of post, I don’t recommend reading the rest. For those of you who are okay with it, I’d like to talk about the pictures I make of myself, and some of their deeper meanings.

To begin with, I have never cosplayed myself. Sure I once made a Prince of Persia costume for carnival back in school, I also dressed up in costumes for Halloween, but in my adult life so far, I have never made a costume for myself. I bring this up because I always wanted to, and still do. Its not even really a case of not possessing the skill and talent needed to make costumes. With the information readily available on the internet created by so many amazing people, I’m confident I could make myself a costume I would be satisfied with. The issue is: why bother? Hungary doesn’t host frequent conventions, and I feel like the ability to maybe show off a costume once is not worth the effort I would put into it. I could just be making excuses, there is always that possibility. None the less, at the end of the day I do not feel the motivation to put work into any such project. But I do know how to draw.


This one was the first. He is Tamolar, the melancholic ex-knight of Lomar from one the stories I wrote. He was based on me at the time, so I drew myself as him. To me, this is how I cosplay. I get to see myself in cool outfits, even if it is only for the length of a single image. But more than that, my self portraits always represent me at the time. Not just what I think is cool there and then, but how I feel. I wont go into the details of why Tamolar is the way he is (You can read the stories to find out), but my early college years were a low point for me, and I think the image does give that off.


This one is far less emotional, so I will keep this one brief. By this time I was feeling a lot more healthy, and I really liked playing DOTA 2. Queen of Pain was one of my mains. You can think me shallow if you want, but it was her attitude that made her one of my favorite characters. I just got the random idea to make my next profile picture a male version of her. No special emotions tied to this one. Just simple as that.


Brighter, right? I do tend to have something of an inner paladin. That, and Uther was always one of my favorite Warcraft characters, dating all the way back to Warcraft 3. I recently stopped playing all Blizzard games, just because I feel like the company currently doesn’t care about me as much as they used to as opposed to their bottom line, but I refuse to let my breakup with them ruin the good memories they once gave me. Which brings me to the last one.

Self portrait - The last guardian

The announcement of the Battle for Azeroth expansion was the beginning of the end for my relationship with Blizzard. Fans of the franchise where busy chanting Horde and Alliance, in the conventions and on the internet. Blizzard has made a killing figuratively pitting their fans against each other in this way, and I understand the psychology behind the decision. Yet amidst all the name-calling and rivalry, I cant help but think of poor Medivh. The man returned from death to make up for the mistakes he made, to bring and end to evil plaguing the world and uniting the warring factions. It is a good thing he is dead, because if he saw what became of the world he risked everything to save, I’m sure he would feel more hurt by the Blizzard story team than I do. And don’t want to place myself on the same level as the Last freakin’ Guardian, the disappointment in my eyes in the picture is how I felt when I made the picture, and still continue to feel today. Every day I feel a little more disheartened by what I see in the world, not just the fantasy one, but the real one too. And for a change, I don’t feel like it is a failing of mine. I feel like the world is failing me.


Usually when I make a new self portrait it then becomes my new profile picture on the internet. However you may have noticed that when I made my thesis selfie I did not update any of my socials. That is because this latest picture is just cosplay. Just me wearing a silly costume for an occasion. This does not represent me now wanting to purge all heretics, or anything similarly 40K. Its just the first image that I thought would look cool. The reason my profile pictures have not changed, is because I am not currently a metaphorical Ultramarine Librarian, I am still a disappointed Medivh.

Just how I’m feeling at the moment. Here’s hoping the future brings new opportunities for me to make new, happier drawings of myself. Maybe one in space. Or on the Moon! OR MARS!!!


Dwarf ladies

So… Dwarf women. I mentioned before that the best fantasy race are the Dwarves. As such, they also tend to be a common subject of the video games I play and the drawings I create. I also really like women, and by women I do mean women of all races. The buffer the better.

The subject of Dwarf women is a divisive one. Though never explicitly stated by Tolkien, bits of dialog from the Lord of the Rings books lead many to believe that Dwarf females also grow beards. Personally I prefer the beardless look.

I went back thought my library of drawings and looked up all the good drawings of lady Dwarves I made over the years for your viewing pleasure.

Rather than linking the DeviantArt posts one by one, I’ll just leave the link to my gallery instead. I’m feeling lazy today.

Wonder Woman


Wonder Woman is my second favorite superhero (closely behind Superman). While I was happy that she got her own movie recently, and that it seems to be very much liked, I can’t honestly say that I liked it. I did, but I also did not.

The definitive version of Diana for me will forever be the one drawn by the Dodsons. Diana is the Superman of woman kind. A symbol all the good women are capable of being and strive towards. That includes toughness, power, compassion, and of course looks as well. No artist has ever hit the nail on the head as well in my eyes as these two.

A few years ago I favorited a painting of Wonder Woman on DeviantArt by user Onibox, because it had her in an amazing, modern looking outfit. Inspired by those images, when I inexplicably got the urge to draw superheros again, I had to take a shot at it myself.

And as usual you can check out the timelapse video right here:

Posting on DeiantArt here.

Sheep, dog n’ Wolf; West of Loathing playthroughs

I’ve started playthroughs of two new games on my Youtube channel. One of them is an old game from my childhood, Sheep, Dog n’ Wolf, a game in which you solve environmental puzzles using “classic cartoon logic” with the end goal of stealing sheep from under the nose of Sam the sheepdog.

Playlist: Sheep, Dog n’ Wolf

The second game is West of Loathing, a stick-figure western RPG with a fantastic sense of humor.

Playlist: West of Loathing

Freya from God of War

One of the things that I still need to improve in is depicting emotion. It is more than just a few lines on the face, rather the whole body, the pose, the angle. Once again it is my beloved Mother who challenges me to evolve. I recently enjoyed watching playthroughs of God of War, and chose Freya as my subject this time. If the face feels off to you, that’s because this drawing is also a picture of my mom, made at her request.

Happy mothers day!

Posting on DeviantArt here.

Modern Mermaid


My Mom likes to challenge me. At one point she mentioned that she never saw me try to depict a character with non-human streaks in their appearance. I imagine she was thinking of a shape-shifting druid with the lightest hint of bear or wolf in her face, or something like that. The first thought I had was mer-folk.

I don’t think mermaids would be skinny. I have seen Olympic swimmers. Spending your entire life under water in an environment much more dense than air must end up showing on one’s physique. Thus I present my depiction of what I like to think present day mermaids would actually look like.

Original posting on DeviantArt here.

Dena of Dicing with Death


Another DnD show I used to watch a while back was Dicing with Death. The game took place on Neal “Koibu” Erickson’s Twitch channel, and featured only one player plus the DM. When the player character met his end, the roles would be switched.

One of Koibu’s characters was an elven rogue by the name of Qualneer. Throughout his career of thieving the silver haired elf made quite a few lucrative partnerships along the way. One such partnership was made with the fine lady you see above. She had her own ship, a crew of lowlifes at her command, and a mind on riches and profit. In other words: my kind of woman.

Original posting on DeviantArt here.

The evolution of Victarian Black (and Lemorack)

Another trip into the old Rollplay days. I joined in on the original show mid way, the second season of Rollplay: Solum I watched right from the start though. One of my favorite things about table-top role-playing is the journey and the evolution. Characters grow in power, but also in personality. As they move ahead, they often end up going in entirely directions than when you first envisioned them.

The above images depict Geoff Robinson’s character, Victarian Black. I am still not sure what Victarian’s goal was in life (his journey ended before that could be revealed), Geoff’s goal, however, was clear as daylight: full plate mail! To be decked out in an all-covering suit of steel was all he ever wanted, and when he finally got what he wished for, it was the happiest moment in series. He also decked himself out with various sets of gear acquired along the way, like a magical spear, and a shield crafted from the hide of a slain monster.

DeviantArt links:

1, 2, 3.